So as some of you may know, I graduated college recently… And I’m now at that dreaded period in life post-college and pre-work.
It’s hard because at this age, you’re still figuring things out. You’re still very young and you don’t know where you’re gonna go and what path to take. I guess I can speak for most others when I say there’s a lot of pressure in that. I still have that mindset that the Real World is some scary place where you’re expected to have grown up already- that blending in with adults should come normally. And from a socially awkward person’s perspective that just adds to the scariness.
I’ve heard that this is just a normal phase though. And I do hope that’s true- I wouldn’t one of my biggest fears to come true: ending up in a 9-to-5 job I hate.
So what am I doing about these fears right now? I’m taking a much-needed break first. I feel like college drained the life out of me so I’m taking the time to chill and enjoy the little things about life.
Aside from a few local vacation trips (like the recent one in Cebu I went to- this will be a future blog post), I’ve been binge-watching some Disney shows like Girl Meets World and Lab Rats with my younger brother- some very entertaining sitcoms where you don’t have to use your brain much (plus a good laugh is sometimes all we need). I’ve also been doing a lot of self-analysis and emotional-preparation. I feel like I lost a small part of me in college trying to make the grade and please people. So now I’m taking this time to rediscover myself while adding the lessons I’ve picked up in college. I want to be a better person with a better outlook on life.
Also, I have to start learning how to face my fears of the future. I tend to have this battle within me a lot of times. This song describes it.
As Sumo Cyco frontwoman Sever says about this song:
“I had to shut up all those demons in my mind telling me that I couldn’t do something or what was expect of me. And I just had to believe in myself and realize that the only person stopping me from doing what I want to do is myself. As I like to say: The greatest war you’ll ever wage is the war within yourself.”
I hope to be victorious in this inner battle as well. And in time, I hope to have the guts to take on the world.
I feel all right, I’m gonna take on the world
Light up the stars, I’ve got some pages to turn
I’ve got a ticket to the top of the sky
I’m comin’ up, I’m on the ride of my life
That’s thinking a bit ahead. For now though, I’ll enjoy what will be left of my much-needed break. Wish me luck!